clair tell u one thing i was thinking about...
which haf been pressing on me
for the last few weeks
Praise God i didnt crumble and break down
His strength held my weakness...
yeah... I felt as though i cannot compare to sean
i mean this is quite inevitable since i grew up wif him
the only thing i ever beat him at is PSLE tt time
and probably maths...
thats all i could think of...
cuz i felt him to be superior in every area,
sports, computer, friends, spirituality blah blah
and everyone seems to be attracted to him...
yeah i know i was feeling jealous
and i shud not compare myself to him because i haf my own strengths
but still it kept bugging me
to almost everyone he is like the Mr. Nice Guy
cuz he is lame but humorous, calm and wise and is a pro-musician
and me, unable to make up a joke, easily flared up, irradical at times and is not even focussed
he probably doesnt know bout this but,
sometimes i dun like going out wif him cuz im always shunted away
yeah... thats only one of the thing
but God came the last few days... keep coming
and strengthen me by telling me im unique,
i haf strengths sean can never think of having,
even if it is not shown widely,
it is known to Him
and no matter wad happens
sean is still my cousin and i love him as a brother
yeah... relax i will never show this side of me in front of u guys
even if i feel depressed i will force a smile knowing this will help others gain strength as well
i will crucify all this feelings on the cross and let Jesus handle it
=)
